- it is pride week in our town as we speak. tallahassee tries but falls short most of the time in that arena. i went to show support at the local warehouse poetry pride reading last night. 

- the opening act was TFRH and her words were  moving but after her came the poetry. poetry has to be done well or not at all and  every 5th word included references to the moon and cliches were falling onto the ground at our feet in heaps.

- karen (my dearest companion) encouraged me to sneak out. how rude! whatever. our nights out are few and far between and not to be wasted. so we opted for pool. 9 ball again. i rocked it. 

- karen was a clutz. i believe 3 balls hit the floor, the pool cue hit the floor once too. one mistake was advantageous...the ball jumped off the table and landed squarely in the hole. before we even left her house, she had placed popcorn in the microwave for the boy....plastic wrap and all. 

- sometimes i feel anxiety rising inside like it is climbing the rungs of a ladder. usually what brings this is loneliness or money issues and both are based in fear. what the fuck is fear really? fear causes the visceral reaction of fight or flight and my reaction has often been flight. i'm tired of feeling cowardly.

- i am also tired of feeling betrayed and deceived.

- tonite my house will be full of adolescents. 4 to be exact and my tiny abode can't really accommodate that but we're doing it anyway, complete with movies, pizza, soda and candy...wish me luck!

- someone near and dear just told me that i have changed. changed so much so that they do not like the new me and that they thought the old "sweet" me was dead. that i was "selfish" and i had not actually changed in the areas that needed work; the areas that i needed to grow up in. ouch! i do not agree with these statements!

- i have been asked to be in a short film. a project for a class. i always knew i was meant to be a star! 

- did i tell you that i am going to the opera while i am in europe? don giovanni

- raven has started swim team. it is kicking her usually idle ass.

- in 8 days i will be flying over the north atlantic ocean en-route to germany where i will peer out my little plane window and see all of my lost texts and emails swimming fast and furiously, trying to beat me there.