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Monday, May 12, 2008
sitting still and being quiet...
6:17 PM
i presently have a great deal of focus and optimism and motivation. i feel strong and secure. security being a thing that i think i am always lacking, it's nice to have this fleeting feeling of security within myself. why fleeting you ask? it has just always been so. i really want to hold onto it, it's just sometimes the boat starts to rock and i lose my footing. fall down. staying down there for too long. i am aware now though and maybe this time when i lose my balance, i'll jump back up knowing i can be the rock that i need. i am at home....alone, right now and i'm liking it. alone. i am not making plans for what i am going to do next. i'm not trying to convince myself that i need to go out to eat, get a drink, i am not chatting on aim and chronically checking my myspace. i am not thinking of who i can call to entertain me. i am alone. i am lying in my bed, i am eating cereal and fruit, i am reading, i am blogging, i am content. 8 Comments |
