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Friday, January 04, 2008
UNCLE! please....
1:17 AM
alright, i give! i do not have the answer and i do not know what to do! i've seen this happen before and the constant variable here is ME! what am i doing wrong? when arden and i were together, we had this strange thing that almost no lesbians in the history of homo-humanity have experienced! we liked each other A LOT and for A LOT longer than the lesbo guide book accomodates for. we looked at each other with googly eyes and worshiped each other and never fought. it really irritated our friends. they were ready to disown us because we hardly ever emerged from funky town...you know the legend of LB death? not our problem, ever! toward the end, we saw things shifting. we saw things spiraling slowly down and we talked about it and we cried about it and we watched it happen, powerless. we didnt know how to stop it, change it, fix it. and now...it is done. strange comparison but stick with me.... a similair scenario seems to have started with my girls. a blissful and extended perfectness that defied all the norms; teens who share, communicate and love. tender and good. and again, i can see things changing. our house has tension, we have lost abilities of communication. poor decisions are being made. terrible parenting, terrible daughtering. all of it. and now, what can i do? how do i stop it, change it, fix it? i am afraid! 3 Comments |
