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Monday, December 03, 2007
the sweet small things...
7:58 PM
i have been on this rocket roller coaster for awhile and now i'm feeling a small break coming on. the kids have been attached to me almost non-stop since before thanksgiving. i have had the ever vigilant watchful eye on them which is exhausting. restrictions for them means restrictions for me and i am so riddled with cabin fever and whatever the opposite of lonely is and not the good definition, the bad one. if one does exist which i'm sure it does. it just eludes me at the moment! whew, see what is happening to my over-stimulated brain. so the kids are at their dad's house this week and i have 2 thing i want to address with this blog post. my plans and the small things i'm trying to focus on to remain positive (even though, the black cloud has struck again....on my clothes dryer, that bitch!) 1. my plans: - to sit on my couch slack jawed staring at the dust settling and listening to...NOthing! - crocheting the damn scarf that i started, ripped apart, started, ripped apart and started again. - eating lots of tuna fish and crackers (which is my favorite food). - drinking wine. - lying prone in my wrecked, stinky, unmade bed. - cleaning my house, not a lot, just a little. - watching bad TV. - riding my bike. - read my new book. - sleeping. - prowling around inside my head (it's scary in there). 2. the small things: - our new kitten, finally named tonight by my daughter to avoid my calling her uterus or yute for short, slept with me curled up in the crook of my elbow with her head lying on my forearm, peaceful and meow-less. sweet and good. so sweet, i cried! - last night one of my kids said "i love talking to you!" to me. so sweet, i cried! - last night one of my kids apologized in a round about way, "i'm glad i acted like a bratty teen because we really worked out some stuff and now we're better!" so sweet, i cried! - well, that's all i got now but it's baby steps right, baby? 4 Comments |
