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Tuesday, October 16, 2007
"dating with a vengeance"
11:55 AM
one night stands, flings and general whoring around not counting as significant relationships, i only have a couple of "ex's" to list. 1. my marriage starting at age 19 for 8 years resulting in two beautiful children and a wonderful life long friend. 2. arden for 7 years starting while still married to #1. (she always did hate being the mistress) so now i have moved into the dating scene trying to be honest and fair and good to everyone involved. i guess i felt that if i was truthful and open, no one would be hurt, right? we're all choosing to go into this with our eyes wide open, right? everyone understands that yours truly needs to experience what this single life is like, right? why? is the question i hear. why do you need to be single? why do you want this so bad? i used to be very clear about that. i used to know in my heart and head without a doubt, just WHY this was so important. now, the why is vague, at best. unplanned emotions are springing up. everything is on a continuum of points that blur and shift constantly. so hazily i say that, no fucking matter what, i will keep this up until i feel i have reached some resolution, some understanding, some clear picture about what i want, what i have to have, what's really and truly the important thing that i cannot live without. Labels: arden, dating, emotions, ex, honesty 3 Comments |
