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Saturday, July 21, 2007
sin·gle [sing-guhl] –adjective
9:19 AM
so someone asked me what single meant for me.... this is not something i had thought about before in terms of defining it clearly for myself. single means being able to date others? single means being lonely sometimes? single means finding random friends to hear about whats going on with you rather than the "single" point of contact in a relationship. single is the opposite of relationship....maybe? the whole concept is unsettling really! i am afraid, nervous, excited, thrilled...mostly i want to be certain i make good choices. pre-relationship with arden, i made unwise decisions for myself because i have always lacked will. i had, in the past very little control of myself. ok, so maybe it wasnt lack of will, maybe it was being strong willed because when i wanted something, i wouldnt stop until i had it and that was self destructive sometimes. i can totally see myself falling into that pattern again if i am not careful. i want to be careful. so, single for me is learning self control, contentment in being alone and dating cute girls in a smart way. 0 Comments |
